The Illusion of Perfection.

“The Illusion of Perfection.”

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Each day my reflection changes, likely not in reality but who knows for certain. Human perception is largely biased. The world is open to interpretation and as a result, the way we see things changes from person to person. Two people who witness the same event, hear the same song, or look at the same picture, will never come away from it with the same understanding because reality it seems, is subjective.

I realize now, that there are errors in my programming; perhaps in everyone’s. Errors that alter the way I see the world, how I see others, and how I see myself. There are days I’m smart and days I’m strong, days I’m ugly and days I’m fat. Some that I’m inadequate, some that I’m everything I want to be, some that I’m brave and some that I’m scared. Scared to forget, scared of being forgotten, and some days I reflect as I truly am: somewhere in between.

On days like today, I can’t tell the difference. The mind in the mirror is beautiful but cunning and it knows there is no truth in our reality, only opinion. Whether we are aware of it or not, we’re always seeking approval in one form or another. We look to others for validation; judging our merits and gauging our worth by reaction alone. From a young age we learn that if you behave a certain way, mom & dad will approve, and if you don’t they won’t. This teaches us how to behave in society, but many people never stop searching for this kind of acceptance. They never learn that image and self-worth are not something given to you, but instead something you create for yourself. I was one of those people.

It started young, when I was a boy. Subconsciously comparing myself to my friends, I’d see how they looked, how they acted, what they’d achieved, and I guess at some point I determined I didn’t measure up. That I wasn’t as smart or talented. That I wasn’t as good looking. I fell in to a pattern of inadequate thinking that, in one form or another, still follows me around to this day.

There was a time when going the gym 6 days a week and dieting was the norm for me. My life was an endless pursuit of what, I thought, came naturally everyone else. I wanted so badly to look like they did. To feel worthy and accepted; to accept myself. I was racing my reflection and never once stopped to think where the finish line was; where I’d be happy with how I looked. Happy with who I was. If there was a road that could take you there, I never found it. The whole mindset seems a paradox to me now. How could the pursuit of some superficial esthetic ever lead to a lasting feeling of self-worth?

It’s a fantasy; an illusion of perfection, and it exists only in print. The mind is a weapon if left unchecked and in a society where sex sells and money talks, human beings are always in season; always on the menu. That’s why it always felt like no matter how strong or thin I got, I still wasn’t satisfied. I always wanted more. The finish line always felt like it was just out of reach because in reality, it didn’t exist.

The way you look is just one part of who you are. I think it’s easy for us to forget that. With the emphasis our society puts on appearance, it’s not surprising that little girls and boys grow up feeling like I did. I hope that if I have kids one day, I’ll be able to instill in them a feeling of self-worth and confidence that is uncompromising, unconditional, and distinct from the world outside.

I hope I can teach them to focus on what they love about themselves and about others, not what they don’t. To find validation not through some else but within themselves. Because the mirror doesn’t show you as you are, only as you think you are, and perception is malleable. Happiness is not a finish line, it’s a mindset, and by learning to love yourself and your imperfections, you can find a lasting happiness that will ripple like a wave to all other parts of your life. You have the power to change how you see yourself and it’s never to late to try. Beauty lives in all of us and you can find it if you want to. All you have to do is look.

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Generation: Anxiety.

“Generation: Anxiety.”

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The world is changing. We are more connected with one another than at any other point in human history. Woven in to the digital fabric of the modern age, we are like strands of satin in a vast sheet. Our lives playing out as a sequence of one’s and zero’s, repeating for what will surely be forever, until suddenly it stops.

These days, I find myself equally frightened and humbled by the immense power held between my fingertips. This golden glass; this seeing stone. It connects me to all things past, present, and future and holds the world for ransom. It scares me to think how, in a world so closely connected, it feels like we are more alone than ever. More isolated. More anti-social. More suspicious.

Not long ago, we spent our days working together for survival. We lived in small communities where each person had a defined role; a purpose. But now, in the age of instant access, the global community, we no longer know where we fit in or where we belong. We may have outsmarted the natural order, but in doing so, we’ve discovered that it’s lonely at the top.

We crave a sense of belonging, a feeling of acceptance, and it drives us to invest foolishly in indulgence. A society built on flimsy opinions, with an over-emphasis on the merits of material wealth. We have become little more than cogs in a clock. So fundamentally important and yet, we still just watch the time pass us by. Distracted, over-worked, and under-played, we build handcuffs with our habits and prisons with our networks. We forsake the moment for the hour and forget to live in it. Our attention is split a thousand ways and at any given moment we are bought, sold, upgraded, traded-in, liked, favorited, and forgotten. We are fragmented; incomplete. We are Generation: Anxiety, and we generate our own anxiety.

These are the symptoms of a world where time shines like gold & everyone is greedy, and in a fast-forward existence, who has time to breathe? Who has time to feel? There is always work to do but it’s never work on you. And that’s a big part of the problem. We spend so much time working on the dreams of others just to keep afloat, we forget to chase our own dreams. We forget to work on ourselves. All these things add up to weigh us down. A sea of people, sinking below the surf, left to feel worthless, abandoned, and misunderstood. But there is another way.

Re-focus your mind and breathe-in the moments you have with each other, for they are few and fleeting. Put down your phone and be present. Allow yourself to be vulnerable, but also strong, and strive to treat all beings with respect. Because success in life is not measured in dollars, it’s measured in difference. The difference you make for better or worse in the lives of all things, big or small, smart or dumb, beautiful or ugly.

How we treat each other and how we treat the world, matters. Be kind to yourself and those around you, even if no one is watching because your legacy is not something you can buy or sell. It’s not something you can trade-in, upgrade, or download. It’s not something you can take with you when you go. It’s a gift, given in trust, that lets us know we belong. That we’re not alone. And that feeling, that difference you can make, is something far more valuable than money.

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Poem – “Smiling Eyes.”

“Smiling Eyes.”

Long days & longer nights
Under blankets, out of sight.
A little girl with smiling eyes
Curls up for warmth; so tight.

Her nose, it flys to bait a scratch
And opens doors like lifted latch,
A face concerned in permanent
With fur that grows in patch.

The faintest sound of hurried feet
Leaving the covered underneath,
She gathers supplies and treats to eat
Despite a noted lack of teeth.

Over the years, she rose to fame
Gifted love & songs & many names
A curious heart and wanderer
Who left our lives forever changed.

Don’t be afraid now, smiling eyes
You are big and brave, despite your size.
Little candlelight of life,
I’ll think of you with each sunrise.

Long days and longer nights
Under blankets, out of sight.
A little girl with smiling eyes,
I’ll think of you with each sunrise.

By Devin Ott
September 28th, 2016

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“Weapons on the Wall.” -Lyrics

“Weapons on the Wall.”

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Lyrics, Vocals, Guitar, Composition – Devin Ott
Drums – Alex Bishop
Recorded & Produced – Devin Ott
Written – March 7th/ 2015
Released – August 7th/ 2016
©Poetry for the Hunt 2016

Verse 1
Your wind’s a waste to carry me away
Old number 7’s askin’ me to stay
Those weapons on my wall
Ain’t got nothin’ on you
Ain’t got nothin’ on you

Verse 2
Sit and stay a while
Don’t run away so soon
Gotta come up for air
Come up for air
Come up for air
Those weapons on my wall
Just stop and stare
Just stop and stare

Chorus
Brought to me
A man in chains
Right now I simply am
That little string around your finger
Reminds me to be a man
Your lipstick on my lips and
Your hand in mine eclipsed
It’s a moment so fine
Blissfully blind
Playin’ cards on the skyline

Verse 3
Your minds a lace to hold me in sway
A picture perfect broken world kinda way
Those weapons on my wall
Ain’t got nothing on you
Ain’t got nothing on you

Verse 4
Take my hand and play a while
I promise I don’t bite
Captivated by your smile
Under shining lights
Those weapons on my wall
Just stop and stare
Just stop and stare

Chorus x 3

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“Gone College.” – Lyrics

“Gone College.”

Lyrics, Vocals, Guitar, Composition – Devin Ott
Drums – Alex Bishop
Recorded & Produced – Devin Ott
Written – November 26th/ 2015
Released – August 7th/ 2016
©Poetry for the Hunt 2016

Lyrics

Verse 1
My chest is so tight
Yeah, I can hardly breathe
This pretty little crown
It’ll bring you to your knees

Verse 2
Little genie in the bag
He’ll crawl in to your ears
With promises of candy and
An end to all your fears

Chorus

Don’t take the easy way out
You’re not alone
Don’t take the easy way out
So far from home

Verse 3

This place is so dark
Yeah, I can hardly see
Delay your heartache
Satisfaction guaranteed

Verse 4
Sell out your future
This school teaches lies
Regrets the major
With a minor in disguise

Chorus

Verse 5
My eyes are so tired
But I can’t sleep a wink
These broken wires, well
They’re makin’ it hard to think

Verse 6
The sweat looks good on you
With your beady bloodshot eyes
Swallow your courage
Cash in
Take your prize

Chorus x 2

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“In & Out.” – Lyrics

“In & Out.”

Lyrics, Vocals, Guitar, Composition – Devin Ott
Drums – Alex Bishop
Recorded & Produced – Devin Ott
Written – April 26th/ 2013
Released – August 7th/ 2016
©Poetry for the Hunt 2016

Lyrics

Verse 1
Stop Lock
Red light
Over board help me out
Top notch
Bed post
A pyramid devout

Verse 2
Fall in
Feet first
Come back up and breathe
Slip through
Your hands
Heartbeat in my sleeve

Chorus
One in
One out
The weight of the world and a man
I can’t
I will
Give it away if I can

Verse 3
So Low
How high
The snake and ladder interest
Your feet tread light
Weaving a web around us

Verse 4
I feel I could
Fly away from here
Stand still
Step up
Shed your skins and fear

Chorus x 2

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“Street Soul.” – Lyrics

“Street Soul.”

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Lyrics, Vocals, Guitar, Composition – Devin Ott
Drums – Alex Bishop
Recorded & Produced – Devin Ott
Written – January 13th/ 2015
Released – August 7th/ 2016
©Poetry for the Hunt 2016

Lyrics

Verse 1
I saw your eyes
A sight I won’t forget
The funny thing is though
I haven’t met you yet

Verse 2
The obstacle
That stands above me
It understands
But it don’t love me

Chorus
I don’t want your train to leave
( Breathe in, Breathe Out x 2 )
And I don’t want your train to go
( Breathe in, Breathe Out x 2 )

Verse 3
I could learn a lot
From a stable thought
The medicated state of mind
Refined and got shot

Verse 4
The blood I give to you
Is ink for your lines
So write my story gently, please
On closed living room blinds

Chorus

Bridge
Come for me again
But if you do please eat me whole
Cause wandering these streets alone
Has worn out my soul

Verse 5
Believe in me
Because my eyes are new
Burn the wall between us
And let me love you

Chorus x 2

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